Okay, here we go. I've got a lot to show today.
I must warn you that some of these involve dropping the F bomb once or twice, so I apologize if I offend someone.
Fears -NUMB-I numb the pain
After that heartbreak
That you put me through
Because I told you how I feel
And you only laughed in my face
Because there was no way in fucking hell
That I could even think I’m in the same league
As you because you mean everything to me
And I’ll try as hard as I can to please you
If you’ll only give me a fucking chance
But I know I’m not worth your time
But I really wish I could be
Even if it’s only a lie
But until I can be
I numb the pain
Because I'm (in love)I can’t understand why I keep caring when
I’m here and you’re there since it wouldn’t
Or maybe even couldn’t work because of a
Trivial thing such as distance but even then
I think about you and smile because there
Just might be a way for things to work out
Eventually and then I can look at you while
You look at me and touch you while you
Touch me and hold you while you hold me
And kiss you while you kiss me.
If I MayIf I may be so bold as to tell you
That I wish I could see you
A hell of a lot more than I already do
Because this room gets awfully cold at night.
If I may be so daring as to whisper in your ear
That I’ve been thinking about you
A hell of a lot more than I used to
Because you’re much better than everyone else.
If I may be so audacious as to declare
That I would like to be with you
A hell of a lot closer than I am now
Because I feel best when I’m close to you.
What Will It TakeI’ll dye my hair
I’ll wear other clothes
I’ll talk differently
I’ll get new friends
I’ll ignore my family
I’ll change my religion
I’ll run away from home
I’ll make up a new name
I’ll do anything I can
To be with you.
A Gentle NudgeYou may not realise it
But I really do love you
And even though you don’t quite love me
I still love you
And I try to be subtle
And give you a gentle nudge
In my direction while
Trying to remain witty and charming
Without becoming a mere fake
So that you might one day realise
That I really do love you
And that you really do love me as well.
Emotive PortraitsThis photo is of you and me
standing back to back
with me looking down seeming
as though I’m in
(love)deep thought
because I just want to turn around and
(kiss)look at
you because I feel so
(needed)happy
when I’m near you but I know I should just keep this position because
(you don’t feel the same)we’re only friends
anyway, so why change things?
My ThoughtsJoy
Like the caged canary
constrained, confined, and confused
Sorrow
Similar to the snake
deceptive and devious
Hatred
Borrowed from the world
with racist and sexist tendencies
Love
Most likely taken from bogus books
with all of those ever-so-pleasant “happily ever afters”
Me
A product of it all
cynical, hateful, hurtful, and doubtful
Myself
The black sheep
misunderstood, misconstrued and often mistaken
I
The raging volcano
silent…quiet…ERUPTS.
StarvedConstantly seeking praise
Always hungry for more attention
Because he never gets any
Can’t help but feel
EmptyInside and he wants
Nothing more than approval
Always feels so
AloneHoping that some day
Some one will let him know that they
Truly care
And he won’t feel as
UselessAs he usually does
Because he’ll finally be
Full of some one’s
Love
Change the SubjectIt’s nice that you have your
Perfect family
Perfect friends
Perfect lover
Perfect home
Perfect looks
Perfect fashion sense
Perfect thoughts
Perfect grades
Perfect urges
Perfect timing
Perfect speech
Perfect jokes
Perfect arguments
Perfect sex
Perfect country
But stop throwing it all in my face
With your holier-than-thou attitude
Before I take my
Imperfect pencil
And stick it in your
Perfect eye.
You LoseNot quite what I thought you were before
Now that you’re prancing around like an idiot
Spouting off about how great you are
While avoiding the finer things in life
That don’t quite revolve around you
So as I continue to watch
I feel pain inside
Because I thought you were so much better than this
But I was wrong.
And I don’t love you anymore.